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Finding Myself after Trauma and Alcoholism

I woke up nauseous, with a splitting headache again for the third morning in a row. I couldn’t blame it on being sick or anything else because only my bad decision-making was responsible for the state I was in. You see, I was a functioning alcoholic.

I was in a high-stress military job where the standard was perfection. As a female officer, I was scrutinized constantly for my behavior and performance, and as a person of color, I was marginalized. I was objectified constantly and fought sexism and misogyny on a daily basis. The alcohol had become my coping mechanism for the daily barrage of unwanted attention or judgment I received at others’ whims.

This was ten years ago. My drinking problem came to its crescendo after my leadership failed to handle a case of military sexual trauma which turned into moral injury. I was broken, lost, and full of shame and regret. Something had to change for me. I took the only route I knew at the time and visited the mental health clinic on base—on the down-low of course because no one wants that in their record—and I cried a lot that day while I recounted to the counselor the stress I had been under for months. She finally imparted some wisdom to me that I will never forget: “Perfection is not a standard” and “You are not your job.” I was shocked. What did she mean I was not my job? All I had ever dedicated myself to was my military service.

I started contemplating that statement over and over. I knew people had issues when they left the military, trying to find a purpose once they took off the uniform. I realized then that I needed to find a purpose fast. I needed to find myself amidst the crazy of my life if I wanted things to change. I began cultivating relationships outside the military for friendship and support. I read more and picked up hobbies and things that made me feel happy, like hiking and cooking. I had to develop a relationship with my body that didn’t involve punishing it to prepare for a physical fitness assessment but rather celebrated it for what it could do. My life started to improve slowly. And then I stopped drinking.

When I finally separated from the military after the birth of my son, I did it with a sense of hope about my future. There was a little bit of sadness about what I was saying goodbye to, but no grand sense of loss or the looming feeling of dread and listlessness that so many veterans feel when they leave active duty. I had finally found myself. And that is the greatest gift I could have ever asked for.



About the Author: Tiffany Andes is a full-time wife, mother, and life coach. She is the owner of Indomitus Life Coaching, a company focused on helping veterans suffering from trauma and PTSD to take back control of their lives and set goals for their future.

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April 2021

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